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Hacking life. That is what we are all trying to do in a way. My girlfriends and I are smart, busy women that need and do get things done. I find myself running around this city; sprinting from meetings, to workouts to cocktails. The ladies over at ADAY get my 24-hour schedule. They designed a great line of technical clothing for everyday life that moves with you. The product is chic, moves well, is durable and is my new go to for my active life.
It’s 8:30 AM and I am gulping down and cup of coffee and inhaling a granola bar while pulling on my new ADAY threads. I appreciate how comfortable they feel when I sprint out the door for a 9:30 AM Soul Cycle Class knowing that I am about to face the onslaught of morning Soho foot traffic (playing Mario Cart comes to mind).
I’ve made it. I am now sitting, or should I say mounting my bike in the dark, candle lit room that is already uncomfortably hot about to get man handled by a bike. One of my favorite instructors is teaching, his name is Sam Y. Five minutes into class and I am already dripping sweat. I accept I’m about to get my ass handed to me instead of fighting it and push on with determination. I get weird in my Soul Cycle classes, just like I do at my candlelit Y7 Yoga classes. There is something about the dark, candlelit room, the loud music, the intensity that gets me. Some may call it preachy, church like, a money scam but it works for me. At some point during the class I experience a total emotional release, which still weirds me out. But hey if I can find meditation and release through my workout classes, great. I don’t know what liquids drip down my face, whether sweat or tears. It all mixes into one sweaty hot mess and I find myself smiling. My mind focused and quiet yet determined among all the chaos.
Forty-Five minutes later I am walking out the door just absurdly sweaty, giving zero fucks at anyone who looks at me with disapproval as I walk through Soho stripped down to my sports bra and dripping sweat. I feel elated. The earlier morning madness of rushing out the apartment door has melted away and now the day seems less daunting, more achievable.
Lately I’ve been trying to take time to work on manifesting, clearing negative or useless, non-serving thoughts and bring some form of meditation into my life. My mom is great at this ritual. She meditates and journals daily. Every morning she wakes up early and before venturing from home she meditates and then takes a hot bath. I, on the other hand, do not. In fact I’ve gotten so far away from a daily routine that my only habitual sense of normalcy is a general lack of daily consistency.
Many creatives and freelancers operate this way. Of course, there are things I try to accomplish each day to make me feel sane. Working out is an absolute for me and, in many ways, is my personal form of meditation. I actually catch myself in the middle of spin class or yoga reciting my manifestations “I am a working actor.” You don’t all need to know my personal manifestations, but you get the point. I love that my job allows me to live a lifestyle that is different and challenging every day. It keeps me on my toes, it keeps me engaged but it can also be exhausting.
As a freelancer, and my own boss, I am accountable for my own motivation. Naturally, this pressure can lead one to crave some routine in life. I’ve decided to start simple with small things I can do everyday to set a routine. Im going to start getting up at the same time everyday regardless if I have to be on set or have meetings. Im going to hold time and space for meditation. I am going to start practicing all these ideas I’ve read about and have come to understand.
I’ve been taking acting class at The Actors Green Room for just over two years now. Recently they started a holistic side for actors, offering yoga and workshops called The Create Series. During these Create sessions their is usually a guided meditation, followed by a lecture which actors participate in and some mental exercises. It is a safe place devoid of judgment and filled with compassionate community.
The industry I work in, can be really hard to find sustainability and support in. Often the stakes feel so high, it becomes very personal. Actors, deal with daily rejection and it can become a really abusive relationship. So you find ways to practice positive Psychology.
I’ve been reading a lot of Osho lately, he talks about how the more we try to control fear the more it actually controls us. An interesting idea was discussed at last weeks Create workshop. One concept that hit close to home is that often with relationships, whether it be with colleagues, a casting director, friends, family or lovers we tend to project our own fears into these people. There is a huge difference between what is being said and what is being heard. This type of communication can mean that we’re never actually in communication with anybody. Instead we are all just talking through our own personal filters. This probably makes zero sense and I may be rambling and am certainly not talking about this as eloquently as Natalie Roy one of the Create leaders was but this is important stuff and it has me thinking.
I am a pretty honest person, I am direct. I don’t believe in telling my girlfriend she looks good in a dress when she asks my opinion if its isn’t actually a good look on her. I don’t believe in asking a question if you aren’t ready for an honest answer rather than the answer you want to hear. You better damn well be prepared for the answer you don’t want. Ouch… or why the fell are you asking the question in the first place? There is fine line though, between being polite versus honest and an asshole. I am working on it. We can all work on it.
People tend to misinterpret direct energy, we often don’t know what to do with it. New Yorkers tend to handle directness better but they also cross that line into just being a dick a lot more often as well. I think at one point or another we all have to learn that being direct has nothing to do with you, it’s just simply a +B = C. That, is simply the fastest way to C. I don’t have a problem using directness and honesty, I know my intentions are pure and that is what truly matters. I will always love and appreciate the people that can be honest with me.
Life is messy. Perfect is boring. As an actor we get to explore all of this messiness and it can get fucking weird and surreal but paradoxically oh so humane too. One of the reasons I love it. The vulnerability, the messiness, the imperfect moments, the living and learning. It is the stuff that makes us interesting. It is what makes us light up and turn on. Out little passions that grow when like minded people believe in us and fuel us. Characters in scripts are usually written messy and always in conflict, because that is what makes it interesting to watch and relate to. That is what makes us human and humane. We all have shades and layers. We aren’t ever just one thing. I can’t remember who said it during the Create session, if it was Natalie the teacher or another student or a quote read from a book but someone at some point said “listening means being changed by the other person” and yet so often we aren’t. We, as a society have become such inactive listeners. That quote really resonated within me, being present in the moment. Loving the exploration of the interaction.
I don’t really know what I am trying to impart on you here. This may just be one of the posts where I ramble about a personal journey or whatever you want to call it. What I can share is the importance of being honest, accepting honesty, even if it isn’t what you wanted or hope to hear. Being present with right now, actively listen, ask questions and be ready and open to the exchange and if you don’t like or understand what the information is that is being offered, try not to be afraid, ask more questions. When you can do this and accept life’s messiness and offerings, when you can yield and shift in the storm you will be dancing in the storm. You will be dancing with yourself instead of trying to always stand rigid and strong. That is when you will be knocked down by the storm.
Wearing: Strike it up bra + Breaks On Leggings | Shop all ADAY here | Shoes: Cole Haan Grand Pro Tennis Sneaker | Backpack: Laudi Vidni
This post is long overdue. Due to several computer shit storms of malfunctioning I am way behind on blog posts. My apologies. However, ladies and gents we are back up and running! A while back a company called Laudi Vidni and I did a collaboration. I am excited to finally share the experience with you and the beautiful outcome. Laudi Vidni makes timeless handbags, each one custom designed by you. With over 26 styles, leathers, hardware and lining details the possibilities are almost daunting. The company is based in Chicago, where you can go visit their showroom and see all the different bag styles before embarking on your design journey. Being based in NYC I sadly did not have the opportunity to visit the showroom. Instead a magical little box full of leather swatches appeared at my door and the promise that the Laudi ladies would not let me design an ugly bag. The leathers are stunning and unique, you can tell the quality is high from first sight and touch. The first step to the design process in choosing a style, there are several different types of bags available from cross body styles to large cary your life in totes. I decided on the Opera Backpack, that part was easy mainly due to my love of the whole chic backpack trend that is also incredibly practical. Probably the most practical fashion trend to come around in a while and my god am I thankful that such a utilitarian object, the backpack once reserved to be hauled off to school and nothing else is now available in so many beautiful designs. I mean where were all these chic leather backpacks when I was in school? My memories of Jansport backpacks will forever haunt me. No, the Opera Backpack is far from your high school or collage backpack days, it is elegant and refined and the perfect size. Basically backpacks are a lot more fun without the school component. At some point during high school I ditched the backpack for various purses and balancing piles of books in my arms because that was cooler, and more grown up right? Silly, silly high school. Well, I am back to the backpack. The Opera Backpack. It’s actually pretty and practical, a rarity these days and a concept I’m not mad at. My eyes have been un veiled to the beauty of the backpack, it’s minimalistic, it has even weight distribution, it actually fits all my shit. What’s not to love? I have a feeling I’ll be wearing this one into the ground and is only the first of many new backpacks.
Now getting back to the lovely ladies that enabled my love affair with the backpack to become hot with passion once again. I had always wanted to design something within the realm of fashion, often catching myself saying phrases like well I love this design but if only this one bit were this color or that shape. This experience allowed me to do just that. I got to explore my individuality and try my hand at designing a bag, I’m happy to say I’m pretty damn pleased with myself. Now, lets not get too big headed. It’s more like interior design vs architecture…I didn’t actually design the back but rather mixed and matched swatches and hardware but it still gave me a sense of ownership and uniqueness. Sure someone might decide on the exact same leather combination and then I would be flattered that someone had, in my opinion, the same genius creative ideas that I did to come up with such a beautiful backpack. Individuality, uniqueness, it’s all a good message and one that Laudi Vidni is doing well. After all Laudi Vidni is INDIVIDUAL spelled backwards.
I decided to go with a chic, mostly timeless color scheme of all black luxurious leather for the body of the bag, tassels and straps. I went with a dark hunter green for the handle and a more contemporary textured leather for the statement flap. I’ve already trekked this backpack all over France, NYC and every other weekend adventure I’ve been on this summer yet it looks brand new. I also just feel special knowing I helped create this, that is a representation of my unique taste and style and that there probably isn’t an exactly identical one anywhere else in the world.
Shop here: Laudi Vidni
Hot hot summer heat. NYC is melting right now. So far it’s been an amazing summer. I’ve barely been in the city, escaping on weekend adventures at every opportunity. Navigating away from the hot pavement, steamy, brutally aggressive beast that NYC becomes in the hot summer months. I’ve been lucky enough to have been spending most of my summer in the Hamptons. Full of swimming, boating, surfing, rosé filled days, head in the clouds and dancing the nights away. It truly is summer camp for adults, and most of the time feels very surreal. It’s Neverland. However I am not in the Hamptons this weekend, and will keep those stories for another post, which I am sure will be ridiculous because how does one even even begin to explain the Hamptons. It’s best experienced. No, this weekend I am in the city and it is melting, I feel like I am actually in Salvador Dali’s famous surrealist painting ‘The Persistence of Memory’. You know the one, where all the clocks seem to literally be melting off the canvas? Dali is known for his weird and outlandish subject matter, NYC is full of the weird and outlandish and it’s all melting at the moment into one puddle. Everything seems to slow down in the heat, especially if a pool or the ocean isn’t within jumping distance. Being stuck in this heat wave makes one get more creative with activities, one of the more obvious choices is to hit up the museum scene. I spent the day at the new Whitney in meatpacking. The air conditioning was a welcome reprieve and the views were pretty great too. I’m not a group museum goer, rarely do I go with more than one person. It just seems so tedious to me waiting for everyone to have their experience with the art. I know what I like visually and what I don’t and tend to go through museums pretty quickly. Every once in a while I stumbled upon a piece of artwork that really captures me emotionally, draws me in and holds my attention for a long period of time. This is not to say I don’t fully enjoy museums, I just tend to enjoy them at a faster pace than most. I love the diversity of people at museums, you have people from all over the country and world coming to a place to have a cultural experience, that idea to me is pretty fucking cool. Dressing in heat like this can be hard. Basic instincts tell me I don’t want to wear anything. In fact I would like to stay home in the comfort of my air conditioned apartment and walk around in underwear all day. Then I start to feel guilty at not doing anything so I get dressed and venture out. The common problem of going from straight humid grossness into freezing air conditioning is always a dilemma when picking out my outfit. One of my new favorite brands, Blameyourdaze, a company based in Greece, makes amazing, beautiful pieces perfect for summer. I’m wearing the Diamond Wide pants pictured here. Every piece by Blameyourdaze is super comfortable, they balance simple and elegant perfectly. Each piece has a hand written number on the tag, indicating the small number of pieces made in each collection. Every little detail makes the brand feel exclusive. The refined details are truly some of the best quality I’ve seen in a small brand. I hope to visit Greece soon and meet these lovely ladies in person, it’s on the top of my travel destinations list!
Outfit: Diamond Wide Pants – Blameyourdaze | Top – KIMEM | Shoes – Dolce & Gabbana | Choker – Sabrina SL by Sabrina Sun | Watch – Daniel Wellington | Purse – Furla
I’ve always been into health & wellness. I pay attention to what I eat, believe in eating clean, organic and healthy but also treating yourself every once in a while and not obsessing over diets. I believe in feeling strong, healthy, and working for the body you want. As an actor, workouts have been the meditation that keep me grounded and healthy – both mentally and physically. I am a health junkie in many ways and I really enjoy intense workouts that push me. Soul Cycle, hot yoga, Barry’s Bootcamp – you name it. That being said, juggling auditions, blog posts, modeling and life in general sometimes makes it hard to stick to a consistent workout regime. Every little tip and trick helps, whether it be finding that perfect granola bar to take on the go, the new power hour workout or using the new Slendertone Connect Abs belt, pictured here. Now, I know what you are thinking, “does this shit actually work?” Those were my exact thoughts when I heard about this too good to be true miracle product. I’m sure you’ve all seen the infomercials and ads in health magazines. And let’s be honest – we have all, at the very least, even if just for a second, thought about trying them out. I was skeptical to say the least. However, given my busy schedule and motivation to get my summer bod ready I gave into curiosity and said, well why the hell not?
Many giggles and jokes later I had wrapped the belt around my core, post workout and cup of tea in hand and settled in for my first Slendertone Connect experience. The toning belt is meant to actively engage and tone core muscles through clinically proven Electrical Muscle Stimulation (EMS) technology. Let me tell you, my abs were definitely being actively engaged! You could actually see the muscles tightening as if I were doing a crunch. Sans the effort it takes to complete a “traditional” crunch. The involuntary muscle stimulation first caused me to burst out laughing as I had no control over what my abs were doing. A few minutes of laughing was quickly followed by the thought, my god this is actually making my abs sore. I was sore the next day. And the following day. Curiosity was replaced by awe and excitement that hey, maybe this actually might be a great add on to my existing workouts. I knew there had to be some benefits because this is the exact technology that was used during my physical therapy sessions to help repair and build muscle. But now I can confirm it produces results!
I used Slendertone every day for a week and can say 100% my abs were sore. I found using the product before or after my workouts gave me the best results. Utilizing as a warmup for my core or an extension from my workout to firm and strengthen core muscles. My favorite morning ritual is to wake up, make a smoothie and head out for a sweat session. Either before or after I’ll strap on the Slendertone for an extra toning session. It’s super easy to use with the Slendertone app that tracks your progress and use. All laughs and jokes aside, and trust me there were plenty, I will be continuing the use of Slendertone and am excited to see longer term results. It super lightweight and easy to take on the road. And to put it simply, this shit just actually works.
Slendertone Connect abs: http://www.slendertone.com/en-us/slendertone-connect #NewYearNewAbs
New York City in the Spring time. It’s the excitement of new things to come. The pre-game to summer. The shedding of old shit. I’ve been doing a lot of that lately. Cleaning out my closet, the physical one and metaphorical one. It’s just the beginning of Spring and I’ve already gone through a lot of changes and have a lot to look forward to. I recently got a new roommate and moved from one room to the other which in itself feels like speed dating and moving all rolled into one tedious experience. Finding a new copacetic roommate is very much like the online dating process. It all starts with the back and forth online conversation in which you try to gather as much as you can to suss out the level of normal this stranger is before inviting them to meet you in person. Followed by social media stalking and eventually the actual meet in person. Catfishes need not apply. Inevitably a few weirdos are going to seek by the email, social media stalking and make it to the in person meet and greet. Needless to say I have a new lovely roommate and now I get to look forward to re-arranging and re-decorating the apartment. I like spring cleaning. Getting rid of the old and bringing in the new. New roommate, new room, new decorating, organization and new spring wardrobe. Cue this fantastic Jumpsuit pictured here.
I’ve always been obsessed with neutrals, whites in particular. So when Saint x Sinner sent me this magical jump suit I immediately fell in Love. The first new addition to my Spring wardrobe. What was really special was the memories the brand brought up for me. Saint x Sinner is based out of Bali, Indonesia. Which I haven’t visited in years. It is a truly magical, otherworldly place that I could easily spend months and months getting lost in it’s intoxicating landscapes. The beautiful textiles, scents, and memories of the wonderful people came flooding back with each beautifully crafted garment. It was one of those memorable moments that give us pause. I opted for simple yet bold accessories. I am getting back into watches and love this big oversized wood watch by Jord, a company that values sustainability, efficiency, and experiential living.
One of the things I am looking forward to this Spring and Summer is traveling more. Bali is definitely high on my list of places to get back to. Along with trying some new places, Iceland, South America and Morocco are all high on my list. New York City puts my senses into overdrive, the sights, sounds, people the non stop city – and it can be a bit much at times but more often
then not I crave it. I did decide to live here after all. Something about that endless adrenaline. Traveling does the same thing for my senses. Go explore, create, have amazing moments and memories. That’s my Spring time mantra.
Outfit: All Night Jumpsuit – Saint x Sinner , Hat – Lack of Color , Frankie Watch in Ebony – Jord Wood Watches , Shoes – Stella Mccartney